I don't know if anyone needs a place like this today, I know I Do. I am an angry mess, and I want a drink really bad. I am an alcoholic, and this day is really testing my resolve. It has been very difficult going through this trump show stone cold sober. I am moving between anger and tears. Through all of this, I haven't really been very tempted, I sure am today, though.
I don't know what else to do right now, I quit cold turkey. I don't have a support system in place, except my husband, of course. He is at work, fighting the snowfall. I thought my best course of action would be to write this down, laying it out for others to see is usually helpful for me.
I really scared myself. I was just trying to justify taking a drink: ( if I had a drink now, my husband wouldn't know about it, he doesn't get home for HOURS) to tell you the truth, I already feel a little bit better just writing about this., even though i am ashamed to admit this out loud.
Everyone, please try and take care of yourself as best you can, on this terrible day.
Thank you, Cmae