I hope it is all right to introduce myself here. As you can probably tell from the name, I used to be a card-carrying Republican\conservative. I watched FOX News and went to the website religiously. I HATED with a passion that cannot be described this site, MSNBC, Huffington Post, and wouldn’t even consider going to any of them. I was ESPECIALLY anti-choice; any time there was violence against abortion providers like Planned Parenthood, I cheered it on and admired the perpetrator. my entire way of thinking came through FOX News, and I voted exclusively Republican because of how much I hated democrats\liberals.
But a funny thing happened last year; I discovered through medical professionals that I had gender Dysphoria. So, I did what I considered to be unthinkable: I made an appointment at the local Planned Parenthood to begin HRT. I had NEVER felt comfortable as a male, and this seemed to be the ONLY way possible to deal with it, so I had to make a decision that I felt was highly hypocritical, but that it was my only option. So, I went on HRT, and over the course of a year, I became more “feminine”, my dysphoria, obsessiveness, and trauma lessened and lessened, and I felt MUCH better. But I STILL was a rabid conservative\Republican. I wouldn’t consider any other option.
But then, a week or 2 ago, I found my lifetime opinions changing. I found I was no longer so close-minded, and for the first time in my life, I started questioning the validity of my conservative beliefs. About a week ago, I was lying in bed thinking: “does conservatism REALLY represent my beliefs?”. I thought about it, and realized my beliefs were actually very liberal. For instance, I have NEVER been opposed to gay marriage. It’s always been my opinion that, while it’s not something I would want for myself, I also have no right to judge others on their sexual preferences. In fact, I found that the ONLY thing I seem to have in common with conservativism was my anti-choice beliefs. I had watched on FOX News many times the talk on murdering innocent unborn babies, I had watched the talk about how abortion providers rip babies parts off, and believed all of it. But, suddenly, under the HRT’s influence, I started to wonder: what if, perhaps, all that is just propaganda? What if I’ve been conditioned to believe all this? So, I did a bit of reserch, and found out that a good many points appeared to be misrepresented. Maybe there WERE no developed babies screaming in agony as their body parts were torn from them. So, now, at this point, I was questioning EVERYTHING I had faithfully believed my whole life. EVEN abortion.
So, last week, I came to an unthinkable decision. For the first time in my life, I left the Republican Party. I reregistered as a Democrat. I immediately felt like a new person, like a burden had been lifted from me. I deleted the FOX news website from my internet bookmarks, and changed it to MSNBC. I started reading the Huffington Post, and just registered here. I feel ashamed of my misguided support for conservatism all these years, especially my anti-choice attitude. I want now to learn to become a radical Feminist, SJW, and go as far Leftist as it is possible to go. I feel reborn and have not regretted this decision. I feel like I have “seen the light”, and want to go MUCH farther left. I realize that I have been the enemy for such a long time, and that I must “atone for my sins”, but I have a totally new outlook on life now. I hope here I can get advise on how to fix my thinking, and become far more Feminist, SJW, and far left as possible, because the toxic patriarchy installed their dogma DEEPLY in my soul, and I want to totally expunge it. And I want to apologize here right now for my many years of drone-like, conditioned thinking.