Well, not really, but yes, really. I've sort of developed a theme with these diaries. But I've found this to be a way to get stuff out, without paying for a therapist's new stable of polo ponies.
Currently, I'm sitting in the Emergency room at the hospital waiting while my father is being checked out. He's having blood in his urine and abdominal pain. For those again just tuning in, my mother passed away (his wife of 55 years) back on February 24, followed by the worst funeral, ever.
It seems like it's a urinary tract infection, but it's a waiting game at the moment. It's been a bit of a roller coaster this month. That's partially why it's been almost a month since I've written anything.
My fear is right now, if something happens, that's it...I am alone, with little to no support, no income, and no idea what to do. I dropped off the grid, a while back after I lost my job, moved back to Texas (yuk), and couldn't find any work other than very occasional house/pet sitting for a friend in Central Texas. I have decided that, if the worst happens, which isn't unexpected, as my father's 83, I will NOT stay in Texas. It was barely tolerable when I left, but it's unbelievably bad now, even though I live in Houston. I think living in San Francisco from 2001-2007 decreased my tolerance for red states.
So, as I sit, I here waiting I decided to try a plea for some kind of help here at KOS. I got a lot of nice support with the last diary (save one jackass comment), so I thought I'd throw this out there with the hope of getting some kind of lifeline.
FYI, I was chyron graphics person at several major stations. That's been most of my work life. Then is got automated, and I got squeezed out, and any openings were few and far between, not to mention the sharp right turn the media has taken over the last 20+ years, even in SF.
For the moment, that's it.....it looks like I might just be able to take my father home in a few hours, but time will tell. But I need to be proactive here, and look at my soon-to-come future. I'm hoping fellow KOSsacks might be able to help or at least throw some positive vibes my way.
Will update with new info as the situation warrants.
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