I will make this short as I’d like to be done with this mess.
Someone has made an entire diary out of an undisciplined and out-of-disgust comment I made. The diary produced over 200 comments making it well-known to many kossians. It is hard to know when to speak up and when to sit down. However, due to the number of people now involved, I need to speak up and hopefully, move on. I understand that there are a few people here who have probably closed their minds to me. This hurts me but such is the way of humans sometimes and that is a consequence I must live with.
The rest of the matter...
Many times over the past few weeks I have had to make the decision whether to "let it go" or to "fight back". More often than not, I chose to let it go. I made the wrong decision the other day and I apologize to all that it rankled. It’s hard to explain why I made the comment I did as it goes deeper than he said/she said. However, I wrote my insinuation in a way that I had hoped would gave the diarist room to argue and a way out. Insinuation never works because then you open the door for further argument and increasing tension. Insinuation can be interpreted any way the receiver understands it. Insinuation is a mistake and it is also a manipulation and I apologize for not being forthright. I admit that my comment was made to inflame and therefore was troll rate-able. At the time, I had a "devil may care" attitude and I am experienced enough to know that it is not a wise road to take – no matter how angry one might feel. But, I silenced my better sense.
I had been avoiding the person whom I insulted from the first time I read this person’s comments on this website as I sensed trouble. I guess I had had enough and chose to go for the broke. It was a mistake and showed a lack of self-control and restraint on my part. This may not be a good time for me to be getting into controversial discussions. I definately have some steam to blow in my private life.
I will continue to comment and, occasionally diary on this website. I am avidly against pushing the troll rate button if at all possible. The "free punching" that’s been going on here makes one wonder what other recourse is available and to some extent, at some time in the last few days, I decided "what have I got to lose?" and fought back, not with troll ratings, but with my words– unfortunately, my better side was over-ruled by my angry one and fore-thought went out the window.
I woke up this morning and remembered this:
An Indian chief was once asked, "Do you believe in good and evil?"
To which the chief replied, "Yes".
The questioner asked, "How so?"
The Indian chief responded, "I have a good dog and and evil dog and they fight all the time."
"Well, which one wins?"
The old wise one simply replied, "Whichever one I feed the most."
I have a dog I have to go feed. Thanks for reading. Less for me, but more for ya’ll, I hope this restores some sense of calm to those I have angered and to the website in general.