I'd let go if I could...
It's been a few weeks..I have withheld my emotional ups and downs... and still waiting to see if we can get a home equity line at 13.5%.....
The housing market in Phoenix was bad...and now it is at a standstill... and will remain so through the holidays.... My home value appears to have dropped almost 20% in four months..... the last home that sold in our zip was in June.... we were priced under that home...and are now priced below any sale price in that neighborhood in years.... and still no lookers .... Banks won't loan against the house b/c it has been for sale...without regard to loan to market value ratios..... so to get a loan there we must take it off the market for three months.....
Husband's company finally has a qualified product (after many years of effort) - a leading edge product... and the few million they need to keep going for a year is increasingly difficult to fund (while we give billions away to non-product gamblers...that still aren't disclosing their poor investment choices...i.e. CDS's). Add the future economic downturn and will there be enough sales? We'll know in about 6 months if we will survive.....
Good News? I guess I don't give a shit anymore... oh that's not true...but one must get there mentally to deal with a life dream adjustment... so that any forced alternative looks OK.... and in the end it doesn't matter.... we have always been just wage slaves... we hoped we might own some of our wealth before retirement... but it is not looking that way...along with the other 95% of America...so at least we are in good company!!!
The only real positive from this so far? My kids don't whine for stuff anymore and I am finally trying to pay attention to financial news/politics in more detail...(well maybe that is not a positive!)... and I am not eating so many rich foods. :)