I'm tired of it.
For all practical purposes, Obama has won this thing. He played by the rules and won the nomination. He's won more states, more cauces and primaries, more pledged delegates.
We've all done the math over and over again. Hillary needs a miracle.
So why am I so bummed? I oughta be happy as a freaking lark, excited and energized and pumped up over the prospect of a Democrat beating the piss out of John McCain in November and restoring integrity and competence to the White House.
Intead, I'm just sick of it all.
I'm sick of national polls showing Obama comfortably ahead, then Hillary "bouncing back" due to the latest media-driven controversy. And I'm tired of reading about Hillary "momentum" in the latest cherrypicked poll, but hearing crickets chirp when Obama regains his lead a few days later.
I'm sick of boycotting cable news, because I was once a proud cable news junkie. I'm tired of Chris Matthews and Joe Scarborough and Norah O'Donnell and Wolf Blitzer and Tim Russert. I mourn the fact that I've lost all respect for George Stephanopoulos and James Carville.
I'm tired of listening to the morons call into C-Span. I'm sick of listening to my idiot co-workers talk about Obama's "Muslim" problem. I'm tired of thinking bad thoughts about people who support Hillary Clinton.
I'm tired of disliking Bill Clinton, a man I once strongly defended and happened to be a pretty good president.
I hate it that I can't visit Talkleft or MyDD or Talking Points Memo without wanting to put my fist through my monitor. And I'm sick over the fact that Matt freakin' Drudge seems to me more objective and restrained than many of our so-called allies in the progressive blogosphere.
I'm sick of hearing Rev. Wright's name. The man isn't running for a damned thing and his views are irrelevant to this campaign.
I'm tired of indecisive superdelegates.
I'm tired of people claiming that whites won't vote for a black man and that blacks won't vote for a white woman.
I'm sick of watching John McCain get a free pass while our two Democratic superstars flail away at one another needlessly.
I'm tired of logging on to DailyKos and waiting for something, anything, to change the dynamics of the race -- and nothing ever really does.
But most of all, I'm tired of wondering: Does this country really deserve Barack Obama? Because I'm starting to think we don't. And I hate feeling that way.
I'm getting a new hobby. Something to take me away from the day-to-day grind of this dreary campaign and re-energize my brain. Something to give me a little lift.
Baseball, maybe. How 'bout them Cardinals?