This week's diarist ended up posting late. This was the fill-in diary while waiting for that one.
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I'm feeling my sister's loss a lot right now. Saturday would have been her 66th birthday, but we lost her in 2004, to lymphoma.
I don't know how to say this other than I was a stupid idiot and too self-absorbed to reach out to her the way she deserved, so I am living with the regret of knowing she had lymphoma, and I didn't have a job, but I didn't go visit her. I barely called or emailed.
This sucks.
I try to reach out to her daughter, my niece, who due to the quirks of my family (my half sister was 20+ years older than I) is exactly my age, minus three months. I think I do a pretty decent job. But it won't make up for missing getting to know my sister, adult to adult.
I'll see about adding to this diary if the regularly scheduled diarist doesn't appear.
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