Mothers Day fucking sucks.
Well, this is my second "Mothers Day" of my life, and the same as last year, this day fucking sucks, as well as Christmas, Easter, Halloween and my son's birthday. Fuck this shit.
Even more fucked up is this: Mothers Day is celebrated by moms, while, apparently birth mothers don't deserve to celebrate the actual holiday, and were given the "Birthmothers Day"- because THAT'S not demeaning at ALL! The only sense of feel I get from "Birthmothers Day" is that we're not worthy enough to be called mothers. We're not worthy to celebrate that day because we have nothing to show for. We're not worthy to celebrate it because our kids aren't with us. That's fucking LOVELY! Thanks Adoption Agencies!
I don't know how to feel on these holidays. I have no idea how I should react to people. Today was the only time that I did feel depressed that the only people who wished a Happy Mothers Day to me were my best friends, my fiancee, and my mother, while a lot of people know my story, nobody bothered saying anything to me, but at the same time, I am also glad they hadn't. I already had a shitty day, and this adoption shit makes it worse every fucking year. My adoption placement is what made me even more Pro-Choice, and brought out my inner Feminist.
Now, I have some things to show all of you which make my blood boil. It's the same fucking shit this year AGAIN. Whenever I see this shit, it makes me want to punch people. Whenever I hear them say it, I wish to be in reaching distance so I can show them just how many pill bottles of anti-depressant medications I have, and then, of course, punch their lights out.
Here are some examples:
Here's another one:
So. Not only are those very demeaning but fucked up. Those people deserve a slap to the face.
Here's one that makes me want to kill myself:
Yes, this is totally appropriate. This is why so many natural mothers feel guilt and shame.
Do I feel guilty? Oh yes!
Do I regret the adoption? Yes.
Do I wish I had a CHOICE to have an abortion? Every fucking day.
But, hey, telling natural mothers that they just abandon their kids doesn't sound insensitive at ALL! Remember everyone, adoption isn't as bad as abortion. Not at all!
And this brings me to this fucking gem:
Go ahead, let that sink in. I'll wait.
Uhhhhh, no. Adoption is not the new pregnant. For there to be an adoption placement, another woman has to be pregnant, you insensitive assholes! Babies don’t just magically appear in a social worker's arms. There aren't any little girls dreaming of growing up, just to have their kids adopted by assholes wearing these degrading shirts. There is a very real woman involved, a woman who has carried a child and kept that child safe. A woman who has risked her life and health to bring that child into this fucking world. A woman who’s heart is going to break if she loses her child to adoption. A woman who’s life will be forever changed and will feel nothing but grief, sorrow and the pain of separation until she dies. But who gives a fuck about her, right? Adoption is the new pregnant! Adoption is the loving choice!
Also, the fact that those assholes downplayed the complications of pregnancy is so fucking demeaning! Just because they think it's fucking "cute" wont salvage the women's suffering who have placed their children. That shirt also makes it sound like, "Oh you can stay pregnant, give me your kid and I can pretend I was pregnant but without the mental trauma and stretchmarks!"
I'm fucking done.