The Monday before Memorial Day, Rubi was fine. Her blood tests showed good and she got her chemo, lomustin. On Thursday morning, I found tiny lumps on her legs and we sent cells for biopsy but we knew she was out of remission. We were to meet today to discuss a new protocol. Yesterday, she was fine when she got up but around 10am, something happened and suddenly she was shaking with pain, crying and unable to walk. Just like that! I took her to the local emergency vet who gave her a shot of a pain killer and some tramodol to give her through the night until I could get her to her own vet this morning. She spent a drug out night but was able to rest; I stayed beside her all night.
This morning, my Mr. and I took her in and let her go. It was very quick and quiet and she was grateful for the relief. She gave me kisses before they sedated her but then she was just quiet until the final shot. Then Poof! she was gone.
Join me below for some final thoughts.
Some people say dogs don't go to Heaven, others say all dogs go to Heaven. I do not own any stock in the heaven/hell consortium. All my belief dollars are sunk into science stocks and science says that energy is not created or destroyed, it just changes form. I have no expectations of meeting my sweet little dog in the great beyond but I know that we loved each other here and now and that counts for everything. If we meet again, it will be a wonderful surprise but if not, I was made better for having had her as my dog and I know i made her better for having me as her human. That's all we are guaranteed in this life and it was enough for us.
Thank you for your kind wishes, prayers, and healing thoughts. I was able to buy her 3 good months and only 1 bad day. It was a bargain.