(Note: Perhaps you’re tired of rants and I understand if you are. Letting loose like this helps me let out steam and refocus for what’s ahead. From here on out I’m making my own personal vows of more action, more donations, more calls to my congressman, more volunteering, more just doing what’s honorable and good. With some more diaries and the occasional swear word mixed in. From a long time lurker, thank you all for being right on all these years.)
We’re days away and I’m at the point where I need to rant. I need to vent, gather my thoughts, and try to understand exactly how we got here and know what I and everyone else with some semblance of rational thought are up against to unfuck everything moving forward.
Something unspeakably bad is going to happen in the next 4 years. It’s a frightening and unshakable feeling I’ve had since that God awful Tuesday. Not just the kind of bad that we’ve become numb to as a country like a mass shooting, run of the mill bigotry, or the ongoing erosion of our very democracy. Something horrible and life altering will happen that will drastically harm us as Americans and as human beings.
I have no idea what that something will be. I only have my gut and the ability to understand history as my guidelines. I don’t need to tell you that catastrophic events can occur through multiple means whether done by the tools of man or the forces of nature itself. The misuse of science can be just as lethal as the misuse of a bullet. Soothsaying on the specific would be pointless beyond knowing that all the ingredients are right in front of us. It just depends on what recipe for disaster our new overlords wish to cook up.
All I know is that we’ve been in this situation before and only a few months later did terrorists hijack planes to destroy symbols of American achievement and take thousands of American lives both in the incident itself and the wars that followed. The tealeaves were there for our leaders to read, for the media to inform, and for us to interpret. Now I see it all happening again on a far more dramatic scale and I fear something worse may happen this time around.
And I hope that I’m wrong. I hope we spend the next 4 years with a best-case scenario where nothing happens; we stagnate and simply yell and groan a little more until November 2020. But that requires a leap of faith and frankly, that’s barely getting off the ground anymore.
If and when something happens, I’m sure those around us who put us in this situation will say and do what they always do. They’ll mourn for a little. Claim we’re all going to come together. Pray. Then perhaps the country will decide do something to clear a symptom rather than cure the disease. And we definitely won’t do the one thing that we should be doing in the first place; provide introspection and accountability to those who built the powder keg and simultaneously lit the fuse.
If the worst happens, and we persevere, I know whom I’ll hold responsible and I’ll make sure my children and grandchildren know as well.
I’ll start with Donald Trump and his endless megalomania. His insatiable need to feed his own gluttonous and limitless ego. His craven desire to have his rings and ass kissed and brazen disregard for anyone who doesn’t serve his purposes. His contempt for anyone or anything would dare challenge any one of his words or deeds or that gets under his thin orange skin. His narrow worldview and the pathological need to bask in his own ignorance unchallenged. His continuous and unrepentant lying as though it was the oxygen he depends on to draw breath. His frequent and repeated discarding of ethics and societal norms as if they were trash to leave on the sidewalk and just another obstacle to continue enriching himself. His psychopathic need to lash out or seek vengeance on anyone who he feels has wronged him. His lifelong and documented history of grotesque and criminal treatment of women, minorities, or anyone else who doesn’t look like him or his children. His unlimited corruption, which has resulted him potentially being implicated and compromised with Russian rulers and mobsters all because he has a sick and twisted urine fetish.
To Donald Trump, the epitome of unabashed narcissism and the antithesis of everything that makes humanity and this country decent and good,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To every one of his various minions, peasants, and mouthpieces that felt the need to attempt to draw a paycheck from this corrupt and unhinged cretin who will hold our highest office. To Kellyanne Conway, Reince Preibus, and Sean Spicer, professional liars to whom speaking truth would be the equivalent of vomiting arsenic and who choose to lie for Trump’s benefit or to cover up one of Trump’s own lies. To Paul Manafort who shamelessly draws money from warmongers and ruthless murderers. To Rudy Giuliani and Chris Christie, two fake tough guys who sold their dignity to shill their brand of phony NY/NJ street cred for Trump as soon as they could, only to be discarded the second he no longer needed them. To Jefferson Beauregard Sessions who saw Trump as a way to advance his lifelong prejudices and bigoted views to continue to prevent people of color from voting and keep private prisons stocked piled. To Trump’s army of lawyers, accountants, and anyone else who serves to keep his wealth shrouded in secrecy, lest the people who he is supposed to serve find out he pays no taxes or has colluded with foreign operatives.
To all who coddle and pamper a screaming, diaper shitting, 70-year old toddler like they were running Beelzebub’s Babysitter Club,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To Republican Senators and Congressmen and women who all decided that they prefer power instead of decency and have placed party before country. To that arrogant smarmy Eddie Munster looking motherfucker Paul Ryan who is reveling at the notion of 20 million Americans losing their health insurance and the estimated 36,000 who will die annually if it happens. To those who shriek endlessly about upholding the Constitution yet undermine it by disenfranchising or violating the rights of people with darker skin. To anarchist lunatic like Ted Cruz, an alien life form wrapped in a used condom, who perpetually instigates government shutdowns, delayed appointments and other nihilistic crap and will continue to do so because he can’t help but grovel to Trump and the majority of his constituents are too fucking stupid to stop him. To those who were too chickenshit to stand up to Trump lest they lose potential voters, or condemned The Pussygrabber when it was convenient only to run with arms wide open back to him once he won. To those who exist solely to do the bidding of the lobbyists, CEOs, and plutocrats who line their pockets.
To those who spent the last 8 years obstructing and tossing Molotov cocktails at every piece of good Democratic legislation because you couldn’t stand the fact a black guy with the funny sounding name twice won the right to control the Executive Branch of our government,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To the propaganda peddlers and those who have spent decades brainwashing and preying on the weak to advance the agenda of a totalitarian regime. To an utterly worthless and despicable asshole like Alex Jones who spews every horrible deceitful conspiracy theory concocted from the diseased voices his head to be packaged as some phony form of freedom from an equally non-existent tyranny to be pushed on the gullible for a pretty penny. To the virus that was Andrew Breitbart and his legacy of aggressive hatred and bullshit that now lives on through Steve Bannon and his subordinate vermin. To Roger Ailes who provided suits, microphones, and cameras for a pair of anal warts named Sean Hannity and Bill O’Reilly and then built a legacy of distrust in our institutions, journalism, and the right to a free press and wrapped it all in a colorful miniskirt to satisfy his Jabba the Hut sexual fantasies. To those who manipulated social media algorithms to disseminate brazen falsehoods that were accepted as truth faster than they could be debunked. To those who hacked emails with the intention of disrupting our democracy and those who willingly shared them without reprocussion and praised the cyberterrorists behind the leaks.
To those whose Gods are now an unholy union of Vladamir Putin and Joseph Goebbels and will gladly do a dictator’s work for him,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To the journalists and media who pursue profits before truth. To those who are too frightened by the neocons to dare call them out on their bullshit. To the “both sides” whiners and drive-by stenographers who breathlessly hype non-scandals and ignore anything that doesn’t conform to their Beltway narratives. To people like Mike Allen, Ron Fornier, and Chris Cillizza and so many others, who put on their Three Wise Monkeys routine in order to feign impartiality lest it interfere with their regularly scheduled TV appearances or ability sniff both the farts of the leaders whose acceptance they so covet along with their own. To those who suggest I’m the one who should leave my coastal elite bubble to better understand the people who hate my fucking guts because of both my background and where I live and also refuse to educate themselves to the evolving world beyond their decaying shitholes because to do so would require them to accept that there’s such a fucking thing as evolution. To CNN who went out of their way to hire an obtuse thug like Corey Lewandowski to try and curry favor with the Moscow Mule himself only to see him regularly piss on your company while trying to systematically dismantle the 1st Amendment.
To everyone who failed to be the 4th estate this country desperately needed in a time of near crisis,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To Trump’s Nazis. Not Nationalists, not Alt-Right, fucking Nazis. Oh you are fucking wretched subhuman malignant tumors of filth. To those who attempted to rebrand pure hatred, bigotry, anti-Semitism, misogyny and xenophobia to something other than white supremacy. To those who were rightfully called deplorable, and should have been called way worse, and now wears that title no differently than they would a swastika armband. To those who swarm, bully and harass and then cower like the sniveling little weasels you are the moment someone fights back. To those who go on and on about snowflakes, safe spaces, cucks and any other elementary school insult as though we should feel ashamed at those words instead reviling at the pathetic losers who have nothing else in their lives except to lash out at others as a result of their own self loathing. To Ann Coulter, Richard Spencer and any other one of these overstuffed colostomy bags being offered airtime to bring this abhorrent hate mainstream under the guise of modern day conservatism.
To those whose hearts and souls are blacker than the skin of those whose lives matter way more than yours ever will,
I will neither forgive, nor forget. And I will fight you and everything you stand for until my dying breath.
To Trump’s business partners and bankrollers. To every Goldman Sachs banker who Baron vas Deferens is appointing because when millions and billions in wealth aren’t enough you need to rewrite the rules to keep the bills coming in and the compliance going out. To Rex Tillerson who spent the majority of his life working with any hostile regime in order to keep our dependence on foreign oil high while keeping his culpability to any harm his company has done to the planet low. To Betsy DeVos and her whole family because apparently when you have billions it gives you the right to attempt to reengineer our educational system to extract profits because that’s what God would have wanted and hey, what’s another stone to squeeze. To Mark Burnett who gave Trump a lifeline with his own TV show and then spent all his time and energy making sure no one who worked in production on the show could tell anyone about just how rotten and vile his star actually is off camera. To Peter Thiel, Sheldon Adelson and those who attempt to bring comic book villainy to real life through use of their money to silence critics and shut down entire media outlets. To Wayne LaPierre, a fucking terrorist mastermind who washes his hands with the blood of the victims of every gun massacre in our country.
To the people who sadistically used their power and influence for a chance to tip the scales even further in their direction
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To the religious fanatics and those who use Christianity as a weapon. To people who pervert the teachings of Jesus Christ in order to maintain their power or to control the poor and needy rather than help them. To people like Mike Huckabee or Ben Carson who can’t grasp the concept of the separation of church and state and use God as a prop when they are on camera. To the ones who demonize those who might believe differently than you or don’t believe at all and then indoctrinate children into the same mindless ignorance and false morality. To the drooling nitwits on FOX News who perpetuate myths of persecution like the bullshit War on Christmas where none actually exist. To the ones who spent 8 fucking years trashing a man of faith, family and principle as a heathen, a closet Muslim, and an anti-Christ only to elect a literal idol of greed who lives surrounded by gold, boasts of his sexual conquests and infidelity and would sooner wipe his ass with a Bible than read it. To those who think an invisible man in the sky is going to cure all their problems and won’t do a thing about it on their own then have the temerity to blame someone else or the government for their woes. To everyone who feels that relying on thoughts and prayers will solve all the ills of our country instead of taking action.
To you modern day fanatics and zealots,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.
To everyone who voted for this imbecilic Neanderthal. Everyone who prioritized a decrease in his or her taxes over human decency. Everyone who could see Trump was a terrible person, but decided somehow that hacked emails and private servers were a worse offense. Everyone who fell for farce after farce, like the Mexican wall or bringing steel and coal back to a trailer park near you, orchestrated by one of the biggest con artists this world has ever known. Everyone who looked past his racism, his admission of sexual assault, his unending lies and chose to condone it versus speak out. Everyone who Obama was dead on about that clung to guns and religion for 8 fucking years believing that he was coming to take both at a moments notice. Everyone who told me to give the guy a chance as though my eyes, ears, brain, and heart stopped functioning for an entire year.
You have all made this country and the world less safe for me, my family and everyone else who cares about goodwill towards others and the Earth we share. And for that, and for whatever happens next, here is where I place responsibility. I hold you all accountable for any of the atrocities that may befall anyone in this country while this drunkenly incoherent psychopathic blob with a combover is President.
And when it comes time for us to face peril head on and collectively climb out of a dark pit together. When we’ve all overcome and it comes time to offer support and compassion, when it comes time to heal, rebuild this country and make a new beginning for everyone who stands on the right side of history and democracy,
I will neither forgive, nor forget.