Yesterday was a hard day emotionally for me. after dealing with marital assets division. Someplace deep inside I was hoping this was a very bad dream. And that I would wake up and find out that it was just a dream.And that it really never happened. But when I woke up there was the paperwork laying on my table. I went through my parent's divorce and that hurt because I thought I caused it. I tried to make sure that I would never ever have to say that word again but now I know the pain of that word from a different viewpoint. People tell me that "Time heals all wounds" and I have to move on with my life. But right now all I want is to crawl up in a cave and hide. Yesterday was the first time in 29 years I had a hard time hugging her or even touching her. And damn that hurts deep.