I am so tired, so stressed, so frustrated, and at the breaking point. I am a caregiver to my younger brother. Reid never took care of his diabetes and as a result has lost both legs. The only reason he takes his medicine and insulin is because I set it up. He has just been dropped by his doctor for noncompliance. Now I have to try and find another doctor for him. I’m his medical power of attorney and can make the decisions which is good because left to his own devices nothing would be done.
I knew there would be problems when I brought him to North Carolina from California. I do everything. I’m the chief cook and bottle washer, transportation, laundress, bill payer, you name it. If it is something that has to be done I have to do it.
I am just burned out and stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don’t make enough in Social Security to live in a half way decent apartment. He doesn’t make enough to go to a nursing home. His blood sugar is a mess in spite of my getting him to eat properly. Emergency Services is getting tired of coming out here. They were out six times last month.
I just don’t know what to do any more. I just feel like crying which of course won’t help any. I appreciate the moral support this community has given to me. I guess what I need at the moment is an “attagirl” and virtual hug. Thanks for being here for me.