Thankfully, there are fewer and fewer people I sit with that are dying from Covid. I still sit with people, especially if they ask for me or have no family nearby. Sometimes the things people say in their last moments are special, or heartbreaking in their appeals, regrets they’ve carried, and then there are those that are just plain nuts.
I’ve written people's last words to family or friends, in their attempts at forgiveness and for their final expressions of love. I make certain they always sign or at least make some sort of mark so those left behind know this was from the now departed. It’s the crazy things people say to me that can just leave me so flabbergasted, that I’m left speechless and need to leave the room for a few minutes to contain myself.
Politics is something that tends to ooze into every facet of life it seems. Every conversation will end up with some element of politics or religion. The frightening thing is when people so deluded actually believe that some politician is worthy of reverence, a level of GODhood, and able to somehow magically change everything in the world with a sentence based on their (the dying person’s) demands. Apparently, GOD is here for our pleasure and will pop up when we say so… because, well reasons, and I said so.
One of the last people I sat with was one of these that had drunk every flavor of GQP koolaid, worshiped the orange menace, and somehow equated Ivanka and Melania as Republican terrestrial Angels that were planted with Trump so he could do his GODly duty and save the entire planet and the WHITE human race because all other races were unworthy of walking GOD’s planet. Frankly, my skin crawled and I wanted to leave the room and never go back but that is not why I’m there.
He ranted about the Dems, the traitor Dems, and Libs that were destroying the planet. Had nothing he could say specifically was destroyed or taken from him or his family by Dems/Libs but the facts are completely irrelevant. He piled glory upon glory onto Trump, Q’Anon, and the Republicans that were desperately trying to save everyone from the evil Dems. I did ask him for specifics so I could understand his meaning but all he did was regurgitate what was spewed on Fox, and all the other Repug/Trump places. There was no possibility that I could add a little light or clarity or peace to this person's mind.
One of the last things he said to me was “As GOD Trump is my witness, my soul will be avenged for the wrongs done to us all by the evil Demons of Hell, Libs, and Dems.” He was actually waving his fist in the air, was red-faced, and crying. I tried to calm him but he started coughing and then passed. It was the most bizarre thing I’d witnessed yet. A nurse had stopped in the doorway as he started his rant, witnessing this final moment. She hollered to the nurse nearby and hurried to him. I stood in the corner, out of their way so I could make my final statement after he was declared deceased. The nurse looked at me after they both declared him deceased and asked if this was normal. “No, no it wasn’t.”
I made my statement that the Nurse corroborated on his final moments, and went home. I think I listened to more meditative music than normal that night. It was so bizarre listening to someone so brainwashed and so very sad. His final words were unhinged and hateful. No thoughts of love for his family or friends or happy memories, just cruelty and hate. So for me, this horrible turn of politics and religion makes me rather scared about how many others like him I will run into, sit with or watch on TV. I pray to Spirit that somehow good, healthy, loving-kindness will emerge victorious through all this miasma. We have so much work to do, and we must not falter or hesitate or we will fail and people like that now-deceased man, will be running everything.