You all know the stages of GRIEF all to well but as I can't sleep I thought there might be a few out there like me who could benefit from these words often spoken at a time of death. more below
I am generally an optimist. So I surprised myself when I angrily ranted on and on - with great delight today. And the more angry I got the more familiar it began to feel.
We have all experienced the untimely death of a loved one - or even a dream. Today we had a near death experience. We felt a collective vulnerability, that although we were prepared for, like any death, one is never fully prepared.
I am speaking of course about the near death of our dream to turn back the clock and have our country as it once was; an even playing field where Democrats and others, win or loose, put not only our country first, but the lives of both its soldiers and citizens. So convinced were we that this was acheivable, that many if not most of us worked achingly hard to achieve what appeared to be a victory in November.
We have suffered the months now years of world wide shame at our leaders responsible for the deaths of over 3400 brave soldiers who valiently gave their lives, and its so hard to say this, but I fear, in vain. I share the anquish these words bring.
We have watched with collective horror our leaders commit mass murder upon an innccent people, many of whose lives were filled previously with torture and death.
We now watch as our neutured leaders are powerless to stop our President, our PRESIDENT, attempt to bury our very civilization in more war.
Is it any wonder that when the ONE THING WE THOUGHT WE HAD SOME FORM OF CONTROL OVER WENT UP IN FLAMES AND DIED WE GOT MAD AS HELL.
How else can one react to this event when set against everything we hold dear as Americans being ripped to shreds.
We reacted as only we could. The death of a loved one or a dream is very hard to take. So lets, together review the steps.
(1)ANGER - this can't be happening to me and who can I BLAME
(2)DENIAL - its not going to go down this way, I am going to fight back and make somebody PAY
(3)FEAR - that maybe you cannot control the outcome
(4)ACCEPTANCE - that you cannot
(5)SADNESS - at the loss, deep deep sadness
(6)RENEWAL - because thats what makes us human
I said earlier in this diary that we collectively suffered a "near" death experience. We are all still here, despite the hurt, the anger and the shame. We didn't die today.
Whatever was left of our innocence did. We now know, accept, that our system of Government will never be the same,and that we cannot go backwards.
I say, thank goodness. Better to be shell shocked now while the world is still salvagaeable - I hope. And I also hope that we can internally accept that its OK to feel the immense vulnerability that comes with knowing Congress does not have our back while at the same time we are being asked to do what no other generation before us has been asked: save the world from the America we have become.
We are up to the task like no other community on this dear earth. This much I know.