I am trying so hard to retain some shred of belief that today is just another day of disappointment.
with my party
with my country
with the current administration
with over one third of Iraqis lost, maimed or dead
with my blood stained hands
I didn't want any of this. I used to believe in the golden rule - be good to others, etc. But today I find it nearly impossible to believe this anymore.
Today I feel no one speaks for me
.
Today I am looking for a reason to continue to believe we, here, everyday, are making a differance. What are the two most insidious things that could shake a person like me to my very soul......
Watching the two parties that govern the country I live in condem the two things most important to me after my family:
my right to free speech
my right to reject war and the killing of innocents
and that these both occurred today within hours of each other has been reeling.
I'd like to believe it is some grand conspiracy to 'knock some sense' into progressives like me
But it is not. It is the REALITY of the world I live in and that REALITY is breaking me in two.