It's been a really long few years. It started with finding my housemate and best friend in our living room, dead. He was 31. Almost exactly a year later, my other best friend passed, but I wasn't there. He was 26. And then, exactly a year ago this Sunday, I lost another close friend. He passed around midnight on his 21st birthday. I don't know why I'm telling you all this, I guess I just gotta get it off my chest, and if someone ever looks this profile, I want them to know what happened.
My girlfriend dumped me last month. We had lived together for nearly three years when she decided she wanted to see other people. It was a pretty horrible experience, but that first one I mentioned, finding my friend... well, I can only hope that will be the worst thing I ever go through, because I can't imagine worse.
I just got laid off for a month and a half because my work was so slow they couldn't afford to keep me on during winter. I don't even know if I can file for unemployment because I started this job less than six months ago... after getting laid off in the spring from another job that got too slow.
The point here, is that I gotta go. I'm a writer, but I don't write anymore. I spend all my time online, reading the excellent (and not so excellent) diaries, and in the process I think I've started losing control of what I really want to do with myself. So I deleted my myspace account a while ago, and I'm gonna log out and just try to keep away from here... and the internet in general. I understand the vast networking aspect, but I have nothing to network. No stories to speak of, just a lot of stuff I've been putting off.
I am trying to make 2009 an analog year. I do most of my writing by hand, now, and as I log off DKos, I imagine that percentage will increase. There is something out there I have been missing, and I don't think I'll find it unless I spend a lot more time walking around and seeing and feeling things for myself.
Take care, my friends. I'll probably see you when the economy picks up and I no longer feel like I'm wasting away at the computer.