I'm what you call an "abstract thinker." I tend to need to know the thesis before I can get interested in the minutiae of the story. I have to know the over all trip plan before I'll get in the car. I want to know, fully, your intentions and motives before I'll enter into an agreement with you. I don't know why this is. But it causes me a lot of problems. One reason I suspect is because when I approach something new, my brain has to create an entirely new set of synapses that map out the entire structure of the thing before I can feel comfortable filling in the blanks.
I'm really have trouble mapping this new Daily Kos out in my head.
Don't get me wrong, I fully intend to try, and try, and try. Daily Kos is 50% of my intellectual engagement day to day (and I don't feel particularly proud to say that, and would never repeat it out loud.) Necessity is definately the mother of my own self invention so it's possible that I will overcome this "first day in a brand new school" feeling.
Remember what it was like? New halls, new classroom setup, new people. The bathrooms were on different corners of different corridors. The principle's office is on the LEFT? wtf?
That gave me panic attacks that lasted for three or four weeks and is probably what ultimately caused me to finally drop out of school in the middle of the 12th grade.
Ms. Joan was very gentle with me and encouraged me to be patient and give it a chance. And I will, only because she said so. But at first blush, just my first impressions of the over all infra-structure of the all new Daily Kos IV ... I ain't feelin' it.
I am, at this moment in time, unable to develop the imaginary map in my mind that I must develop every time I encounter something new. And I usually have a pretty good impression at what an undertaking that's going to be at the outset. For now, I'll just express my frustration and sadness and nostalgia at not being able to scream down the halls and in and out of the rooms my brain has fully mapped. Every light switch, every lavatory, most of the important rules and who to watch for every day as comrades in the movement toward self realization through online blogging.
And I'll just leave it at that.