ashamed, bewildered, bugged, chagrined , confounded, confused, crushed, discombobulated, disconcerted, embarrassed, fazed, fuddled, humbled, humiliated, in a tizzy, mortified, rattled, shamed, taken aback, and befuddled.
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Letter to Self:
It started with PATCO but will NOT end in Madison.
You didn't do enough last time 'round. You didn't donate enough, phone bank enough, walk the long walk from house to house and talk the talk enough, and things changed.
They were little losses way back when, battles you were sure we would turn with a win. When we did, you walked in, sat down and left your audacity at the door. You hoped that your friends and neighbors would do the right thing. You trusted that they understood the threat to their families and selves. You didn't do enough and your neighbors stayed home. You didn't do enough and the tide changed. The fat cats surged and there wasn't even a line in the sand to hold back the waves.
THERE ARE NO LITTLE LOSSES NOW!
So, it's time. Time to do more. It's time to change and do even more.
Winning really is everything now.
Warmest Regards,
Me