I just got back from seeing Reid. The wound care doctor was in. It looks like he may lose parts in spite of the blood flow being returned. It looks like the fourth toe is mummified and the little toe is badly infected. They are also worried about the infected place on the bottom of his heel. That potentially means he could lose the whole foot.
I can manage to be upbeat near him but at home facing the eviction, worrying about where we are going to live, how to move, and how to care for him at the same time, it is taking its toll. He broke down in tears when I was talking to him this morning. He is scared and blames himself for destroying his life and mine. I got him calmed down and ran over to see him to make sure he was alright. I made sure he knew I loved him and didn't blame him. I explained he had been in denial and couldn't see how bad things were and ask for help. It is a male trait in our family. We lost Mike through the same thing when he was suffering from PTSD and didn't ask for help and that led to his death. Giving his eulogy was the hardest thing I've ever done..
Right now, even with stress tablets, I'm having problems keeping it together. I'm so scared for him. I'm scared I'm going to fail and we will be homeless. Thank you to everyone who is trying to help. I would never be able to make it without you.
Can I just make the world go away and get it off my shoulders??
Part one of the saga with the landlord is here.
Part two the eviction is here.
For those who have asked if I have PayPal I do at artbymichele@aol.com I use it for my store.
And again for those who have asked here is where I am selling things. You can find prints of my artwork and photography on my Fine Arts America account.
You can find my jewelry for sale here.
You can find my scarves for sale here.
I have a Pinterest account that also features my art and jewelry.
Make the World Go Away