I have been writing this diary since 10am,edt. I did something-and it got eaten.
so,I am starting all over again-
I have been in a nursing home since last November-I was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer,last summer,and I did not respond at all well to the chemo and radiation -I was wiped out physically and mentally-I had trouble swallowing-showering exhausted me-my COPD was the worst it had ever been-I was on O2,for the first time in my life-and I resented it.
When I arrived at my PA’s office in early November and collapsed,telling him I could’nt cope anymore ,he suggested a nursing home.
so here I am….
It was good that I was here-I ended up with an inflammation of my esphogaus,a stricture,and a bad impaction.I spent Christmas in the hospital, ‘nothing by mouth.’
I did’nt get back on real food til February.
I had to have several blood transfusions and one of platelets because my bloodwork was awful.
I was declared cancer free,a bit after that.
I would like to go home,but I cannot.My apartment is a horrid mess,and it is on the 2nd floor.
I am involved with this group called ‘Money Follows The Person,’ which re-settles people in the community,with the help they need.
they will subsidize my rent-
They have not even started looking-they are slower then molasses in January.
In the meantime,the bill here goes up,and up-
Because I finally got a rental disvertisment,the first six months only cost 589$ a month-I have made two payments,which has nearly wiped out my checking account. After that it is 1244$-which is all but 60$ of my SSDI-in fact the sneaky bastards-without telling me! tried to get my check sent to them because ‘I could’nt handle my own affairs’.
One phone conference between me,my sister and Social Security put paid to that idea! Considering that I have been paying rent and utilities all along--- I don’t know how they got that idea.
I owe them about 6000$
The gas company canceled my budget plan because they say I did not make all my payments by May 31st.They want all the money-I have made one payment of 182$ and owe three more.
I need help—I don’t expect the entire amount- but if I could pay some of the nursing home bill- they might agree to a lower monthly payment.
my rent,electric and phone are all current-
it costs me about 150$ monthly to feed Moses and Miss Pretty-I order from Chewy,because it is easier to pay with my card and have it delivered then try to get to the bank,get cash and pay my brother and his girl friend,who have been caring for them since November.
I have only seen videos of my cats since then.
Please,what ever help anyone can spare will be very much appreciated.Kind and encouraging words are very helpful,and heartwarming.
I wish this was more eloquent-
paypal is jennifercirino@sbcglobal.net
if anyone wants to use snail mail- kos mail me,okay,please? i will send my currant address. :)
thanks again
swampyankee